What a great article.
This was a very sharp read that popped up on my screen at the correct day, on the correct moment and I want to share it you.
I experienced not long ago a very emotional argument about this same topic with a beloved one. Self employment, building a community in the countryside, home schooling? one day where some of topics on the table. Why was the main question and my answers seemed not to be convincing enough for those who where listening. My identity was questioned and with it, my entire self and life path. I am still carrying the feeling but as a balloon pushed into the water, I am slowly pushing back up. Is inevitable. When you know what the hell you to have to do, you just push back up again.
Why we do things? Do we actually know? Is it even important to know?
On of my weakness is not being able to find a proper word-combination that put together sentences that describe exactly what I have in my heart and mind. Sometimes I am bright enough to find it but the audience just do not want to hear or is just too foreign.
Do we always have to have a reason why in order to do things? I mean. Why I knit? I just do. Of course I could go ahead an drop a few reasons, that I do have, but. What a stupid question, no? Is like asking a writer what he writes about?
And the question does not come alone. It puts pressure.
A: Why do you knit?
B: Because it empowers me. It helps me disconnecting from the fast living experiences of todays, etc (* write here your reasons)
A and B:…
B: No. I do not make money with it.
A (probably in her-his mind): I do not see the point
And she or he does not see the point because, in fact, there is no point! Is the process. There is no big business strategy behind it. Is just play. And play, is not in vain. Is actually incredible valuable time. A long term garden investment, like a fig tree. Give it time to grow, he will provide.
I am desperately in the need to be understood. I am learning to stop needing that because, who gives a damn? Love your beloved ones and be there always but to be understood? It is not necessary. They love you and always will.
I do not want a life of comfortable quietness.
There is absolutely ANYTHING to lose. I have been chosen by something or someone to be alive. And I have to live. And I better live my life good because who knows if we will have another opportunity when we are gone.